a revolution?

this weekend i had the pleasure of taking a trip to kansas city. it wasn’t what i expected. i went down for a conference. anytime i take a trip like this i expect that jesus is going to do something big. because i payed money and took the time, that maybe he will reward me and give me something that will get me through until the next big thing.

this wasn’t so.

luckily for me derek webb showed up. what an honest human being. he has heart and desire and something about him evokes change. i had an opportunity to ask him a question and he had some great responses. my favourite was something along the lines of this…

“for half my life i have been rebel. i rebelled against all things. there was no reason for this, but in the last half of my life i have come to rebel against the things that jesus wants me to rebel against.”

 with him saying that and then listening to a wonderful artist, brett dennen, i have come to find some things.

here is just a sample of some of brett’s words.

in all the burdens of centuries accrue
that get passed along to every generation’s youth
and all the allegories told in lieu of truth
i watched them grow wild and spread like the flu

i saw the rise of an untamed industry
i watched machines paint a paper economy
i saw my own self stand right in front of me
and i didn’t do a thing

i saw poisons pushed in the street
and prescription pills mingling in the mezzanine
with a whole host of wealth of doctors and pharmaceutical companies
still poor people were dying from disease

and i asked when… is a revolution

 in the past few months and maybe year, i have had this desire for the injustices in this world. the idea of social justice, but i have decided against this – i am tired of calling it a social or political agenda, i want to call it a kingdom agenda.

i want to get sick to my stomach when i hear about innocent women and children dying in africa. i want to get goosebumps and be appalled by the number of homeless families in the us and world. i want to be apart of this.

there is a lot in my mind lately. and when this happens i trouble finding words to put down. so this is a start and maybe more will come, but for now i am tired and worn out.

i wish i could find peace in myself, but i know that i have to give a lot away before i can truly find anything in return. i have got to start preparing my heart and mind for what is to come. even if it is difficult i have got to get a grasp on what the lord has planned for me.

i wish it was as easy as just writing about it.